me myself and i

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worldly pleasures have always been my weakness..though timelessly I have decided to become a better me..none of those times have I succeeded.. I will blame no one but me for everything that has happened.. I had fun being loved by the one I love.. and god knows how much have I desired to feel the same way again.. I know I have not been the 100 dollar bill and not everyone likes me..but then again.. I like me..

July 23, 2010

im lovin' it

there are many different types of love..there is the love between you and your friends, the love between you and your family, the love between you and your partner (if you have one), the love between you and yourself, and the love between you and the universe.  Though really, they are all the same thing (since you are the universe)..

sometimes, when you love someone or something in a very special and profound way, that love is unconditional.  People throw that term around a lot — but I’d venture to say that few people mean it..parents often say that they love their children unconditionally..but the number of "akak2 cik cur", for example, is staggering,which shows me one of a few things, either they have no other choice, or they are not able to do anything else or anything..but whatever the reason is, i believe the main factor is that they have not been accepted by their own family.. that sort of love is clearly conditional–the condition being sexual orientation..but my point isn’t to illustrate the lack of love in the world.

anyway, you can make a decision to love someone or something unconditionally..when you make that decision, to love someone totally and completely, something very beautiful happens..you accept that person for all that they are (and aren’t)..in other words, you don’t try to change that person..at times that person may make choices that you wouldn’t make, but you don’t judge them as right or wrong..you simply accept that moment, and accept that other person exactly as they are..i see a lot of people who have “cafeteria” love for their partners..that is to say..there are some things that they really love about their partner, and some things that they really hate, or at least wish that they could change..the thing is, all those aspects make up that unique person..you can’t love just a part of your partner, you must love him or her as a whole — that is, without conditions. 

naturally, unconditional love shouldn’t be saved for just boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, or wives..in fact, applying unconditional love to the entire universe is a very beautiful concept..when you love and accept all parts of the universe, you stop struggling against the moment..it takes an incredible amount of energy to struggle against the moment, and in the end, you are only struggling against yourself..when you love the world unconditionally, you stop seeing the illusion of duality

so, i am making a decision right now..i will love the universe unconditionally–because i love and accept myself, totally and completely, and i recognize that the distance between me and the world “around” me is, of course, zero...

universal love...

July 21, 2010

welcome back

i have to say, the pleasure of pouring my ideas here had been wonderful, and all those entry that i posted had always been what i thought about others, how i disdainfully humiliate them..this time i have change, or so i believe, this blog will be about my principles, the funny things i encountered every other day, the books that i read, the people whom i meet (without judging them or bitching about them), this blog will be about me..my personal diary, a diary that i dedicate to my friends and those who have always believed in me.. 

having all that being said, and having you guys knowing me, i cannot say that i will not use this blog as a medium of channeling my rage towards the world and the people of the world..by now you must think of me as an undecisive, unchangeable, self-proclaimed diva.. but what i would dare to say is that you are in for surprises,i will try my best to surprise you..for those who have known me for quite some time, after reading my blog for some time i'm sure you will think less of me, just like what i have always said, "i'm not a 100 dollar bill, not every one likes me, but i like me,"..so i will end the beginning of my new blog with my favourite quotation said by Abraham Lincoln, if i were two-faced, would i be wearing this one???this quotation has made my fateful search in looking for my lost identity much easier..

this is a three-faced me..